I wish I had been there,
sitting beside you,
when you saw America
and when you passed through her greatness

I wish I could have been there to see,
water so clear, it was like two skies
And when you screamed at the mountains
I wish I could have been there to answer your call

But I am there in some ways,
I was there when your car began to putter
and you thought it was your last drive
and I was there with you,
when the sun rose so sweetly into the sky,
that it made you take a deep breath,
and wonder if it was real,
because you were finally really doing,
all the great things,
that you once said you would

I know you were still here,
even though you were there
Because I carry you with me
I carry you to class
and into the car, on the bus
and wherever I go
But I cannot spend an eternity in my head

Some would say that a life like ours,
must be utterly romantic
But I say that it's ****.
You're like a dream,
that leaves my head and body buzzing for days
Every time we meet,
Every time you touch me,
I feel alive,
I'm flying sky high

Until you leave,
that's when I awake to reality
only to make the sick,
sad realization
that we can never have normal,
only too many goodbyes,
that make it harder to say hello.