Jul 2016
Cold-hearted, discarded
unwanted, unloved
it doesn't matter what I do
it's never good enough
I'm left again without the one
I just can't live without
I wanted so much to believe
but still, I had my doubts
I cauterized the wound
but I can't seem to stop the pain
it's eating at my insides now
it's driving me insane
all my faith I put in you
I viewed you as my savior
there's nothing that I wouldn't do
to try and win your favor
although the distance seemed too vast
you felt like coming home
but it don't really matter now
forever I'm alone
unwanted, unloved
it doesn't matter what I do
it's never good enough
I'm left again without the one
I just can't live without
I wanted so much to believe
but still, I had my doubts
I cauterized the wound
but I can't seem to stop the pain
it's eating at my insides now
it's driving me insane
all my faith I put in you
I viewed you as my savior
there's nothing that I wouldn't do
to try and win your favor
although the distance seemed too vast
you felt like coming home
but it don't really matter now
forever I'm alone
Despite the state lines I really, truly thought that we could be together someday, but now it seems that day will never come. I seen a very bright future for the both of us, but now it seems there never really was an "us".
And no, I'm not going to go looking for anybody to replace you, because I don't really want anybody else. I want you, I ******* need you in my life.
But hey, if nothing else, you have opened my eyes to my true potential, and you have set me on the right path. And I will always be thankful for that. I just really wish that I could've somehow walked that path with you.
But at this point I'm sure that you hate me more than you ever have, which is really ****** up, because finally, I'm on the right track. I'm finally doing the right thing. I finally finished putting my past behind me, and I came out clean on the other side, STD-free and 6 weeks sober.
I just don't get it. Why now?
And no, I'm not going to go looking for anybody to replace you, because I don't really want anybody else. I want you, I ******* need you in my life.
But hey, if nothing else, you have opened my eyes to my true potential, and you have set me on the right path. And I will always be thankful for that. I just really wish that I could've somehow walked that path with you.
But at this point I'm sure that you hate me more than you ever have, which is really ****** up, because finally, I'm on the right track. I'm finally doing the right thing. I finally finished putting my past behind me, and I came out clean on the other side, STD-free and 6 weeks sober.
I just don't get it. Why now?
