When you get let down so many times in your life  you start to creat this brick wall around you, your guards are always up. You live your life with fear of starting over because you feel like you will get rejected. You've got let down from so many people that you thought would've been there for you then the people you wished were there for you all turns there back on you as if you didn't even exist. This generation that I live in has a lot of wicked people in it only God himself knows how much pain and anger we all carry in us. But who am I to judge when there's things that I do myself that I wish I could take back.