I lost a lot in the process of doing better I was afraid of losing more but then I realized that what was being replaced was the things that wasn't needed in my way putting aside all the negativity and ******* taught me a lot don't ever limit yourself to doing what is needed, don't let that fear stop you from becoming the person you want to become. Distance yourself from all those who try to bring you down don't dull your day because of inconstant people ignorance is everywhere remember the key is motivation and ambition and god is your strength.

I'm tired of being so overwhelmed about a situation that's not even my fault I'm tired of a ***** giving me the run around like I'm some type of bad person I do my part as a lady now a ***** want to throw shades at me like I'm crazy. I try to avoid every bad situation because I know it will only get worst if I entertain it. Now I'm sitting here analyzing everything because at this point in my life I should be happy counting my blessings not crying over a ***** taking them from me. I took a lot and lost a lot I'm not going back. Accused everyday of things I don't do the past brought up daily because a ***** can't let go of it. I need me some space. I need to grow out of this shell I'm in because if I don't I'm scared that I will always be confide to this thing called hate.

Stuck between love and hate I know I shouldn't hate no one but you make it so hard for me not to. I loved you with a passion now I'm just numb to it I feel nothing but hatred towards you. Can't change what I feel about you. Steady focusing on my mind because I'm tired of always following my heart it always leads me to the wrong path. So tired of ending up in the same place twice I need to make a change for myself because even god himself knows I'm not happy with where I'm at.

I live my life wondering, what else can go wrong is there a reason why everything is all going down hill for me. Maybe I deserve it. I over think things to much && that's my biggest problem. I need to  worry less on the negatives and focus more on the positive. I need a better outcome. I know I can do better all things are possible if you believe. There is nothing that is impossible only if you make it that way.

When you get let down so many times in your life  you start to creat this brick wall around you, your guards are always up. You live your life with fear of starting over because you feel like you will get rejected. You've got let down from so many people that you thought would've been there for you then the people you wished were there for you all turns there back on you as if you didn't even exist. This generation that I live in has a lot of wicked people in it only God himself knows how much pain and anger we all carry in us. But who am I to judge when there's things that I do myself that I wish I could take back.

Girl all he does is play games, why do you allow this clown to still walk back into your life. He claims to love and care for you but yet hurts you so why do you keep pretending like **** will ever change. Baby girl I know you love em but don't be the fool playing this nikkas games. He'll just have you running round in circles like your the one that's insane. Don't let this nikka bring you down he's nothing but a deadbeat. Your worth so much more. These dudes now and days don't realize what they've got until it's actually gone. They talk **** when they see you happy in the arms of another but when they had you they didn't even know how to cherish you. These dudes are nothing but selfish *** clowns looking for another excuse to make you look weak.