The whispers in the hallways were so loud
They broke our eardrums
we both lived life muted for the longest time
You longer than me
though
I could only hear my heart beat in my head
never thought to use my brain
and you were insane
In the kind of ways
Only a man can be
And
As wed ****
i smiled through the pain
And
you'd laugh a laugh
that sounded
like a cry
And
id cry
a cry
that was silent
For the longest time
And the truth?
we buried that beside my heart and bones
Under the tombstone
that my family picked out
but it leaked out
and
It gave itself away for free
and
it all seeped  
through the cracks in your cement exterior
and I?
I was the daisy that poked up through the side walk
and refused to stop
growing
even when the odds were against it
and you?
you
didn't stop me then
and I refuse to let you  
stop me now.