She recounted on all the things he had given up for Janet.
He dropped out of college to run a business with her,
He gave up on all his own personal affairs to tend to hers.
She stopped recounting when she realised,
he would never sacrifice a thing for her.
In her own dismay,
she asks herself
'why do I give millions for those,
who won't share a single dime back?'.

She clutch her hands,
held a revolver to her brain,
because after all,
heartbreak starts from the mind,
And in her mind,
he was the only thing she wanted.

She did not end her short time,
So every day as she stares into the mirror,
she is a constant reminder of how she will,
never be good enough to walk down the aisle
with him.

She keeps her thoughts,
deeper than an abyss,
by a chasm of chaos
and she keeps her heart,
shattered in a million pieces
separated so that it could never reimage,
to learn to love again,
that's the only way she will never hurt again.