Did it make you feel so good To decide to be the one to fill your cup To the brim with hatred and abandonment Was it because I raised my white flag one last time And you had to be the one With the last word The one to echo, nod and say In your colorful get up Goodbye girl You never mattered at all.
Or perhaps I mattered much, too much I'm not sure what happened But I don't dance next to the river with you Any longer.
I guess its good I guess I'm glad Most of the time But my heart pangs and rings From time to time When I hear your name, see pictures of your face And I guess thats why you replaced me With such swift demise And a candor for silly ink In order to make me matter less.
I heard you asked about my movie When really, You asked about me This town ain't that big sweetheart Did you heart about how I've tried? I kissed a note in pale pink lipstick Called you on the phone to say I'm so sorry for your loss But something within you Made you fight my love With one final blow.
If you could I think you might would do me harm And what echoes throughout my days Is how could someone that loved me so dearly Evoke and turn to such hatred?
You threw me from the wolves Into the ocean, waved goodbye I made art out of it all And if it wasn't for our downfall I wouldn't be where I'm at But don't you wish Don't you see That I've left you behind in year 1 Just like I knew I always would.
A personification of what was This time last year we smiled over short distances A haze of newness, you said all the right things baby Be mine forever, you said It would be so nice if this was here when I returned I opened my heart to you Because it was all I knew how to do But something within me Fought against it with a knowledge With a knowledge that it wasn't quite right.
I wonder if you've soaked up the blood just yet Laid in your bed, new women or men by your side I've got new ink too baby.
One day Our faces will meet once more Will you be so kind? Rewind Rewind Rewind To the thousands of times I've convinced myself the men sitting across from me Were right Because you all pleaded me to see it.
I gave it to you I slapped myself into an oblivion Picked up your drunken Peter Pan behavior I write about you more and more rarely now But hear and feel poetry through out all of my days I don't know what it will take But I see and I feel and I know I need a breath of such fresh air In a number of ways.
Do you hear my voice, see my eyes Like you once admitted in the winter time I'm sorry I'm sorry ****. I'm just sorry.
I wasn't You weren't I know you wanted to be the one And deep in my soul I can only hate you so much for that.