his dream was always of a cart, carrying limbs like those in so many slaughter houses dragged along by two oxen, blind, backs whipped by a golem whose red eyes illuminated the path, the cart's carrion, and even the black sky
when he would awake, he would feel ravenous, not sated by his breakfast mush or his noon repast--only when he sat for dinner would he be full, after he drowned himself in wine, and gorged himself on a feast of flesh, charred yet dripping with blood
the same sanguine soup, perchance, he saw flowing from the wagon of his dreams, the same as the crimson ooze from the humps of the beaten beasts who transported the ghoulish cargo to some crypt in the greedy earth
to someplace he longed to see and to be, in the dream, the one from which he would awake with such perverse hunger for life
*lebensunwertes leben is the German phrase, coined in the early 1930s, meaning "lives unworthy of living"