His eyes look so sad and full of experience
In the pictures now
I contemplate how I've had to pass
The porcelain doll over
Felt so good to run so carefree.

Been thinking and deciphering
At last, I find such peace
Calmness with my current state
Took the day to surround myself with work and me.

A multitude of voices, colors
Skill sets and artistry all around
Dollar bills echoing necessity to survive
Mama and daddy proud but my god
I hope this makes you get it
Please finally fully believe
And understand.

I forgot to try my dress on
Later, I think
Each day full, never any rest
And I have to punch myself
To remember and think
My God, you lucky ******* *****.

I realized
Been thinkin' and feeling real peaceful
I am so very fine
With the lax romance, meaning
Beautiful Innovator not going anywhere
But wait, not quite
He told me last night in the crook of summer
That I was about to blow up
Thats what I told you just a few weeks ago, I said
A shared secret smile
As if our electricity was contagious
Like the mimosas only we drank
Contained aptitude for change
He mentions like lace on his tongue
That he can see a real future
I exclaim that I've been wondering
If I'm just not cut out to be a duo
He chuckled and shook his head.

I just
I've spent my LIFE
Tying it to someone else
And for once, for once
No obligation
No explanation
No chasing
Waiting
Faking
Just existing
Putting my heart, my dreams
Giving love and support
Voicing when I don't feel it returned
From any woman
Or man
But not because

I belong to them.

I don't ever want to belong to anyone.

And theres something really, very special
About the fact that I can fully stand on my own
Able to go anywhere, at any time
And today, I thank the heavens
I haven't found or realized
My person.