The pain
My pain
The pain you cause
The tears you force down my cheek
You can’t
You don’t
You choose not to try to understand me
No effort
It feels as though you laugh at my pain
My suffering
My loss
You are sick
What you are
It is not normal
You stress
You anger
You frighten
You intimidate everyone around you
You belittle everyone else’s problems
How dare you
How dare you yell at me?
How dare you look me in the eyes?
After you yell at everyone I love
After you make my loves feel unimportant
After you make my future seem unachievable
After you treat me like crap
What did I do to deserve you?
You monster
You demon
You deserve to go to the lowest level of hell
My dream is to escape from your deadly grasp
I so wish that I were able to fly away from your dungeon
I am embarrassed to live in the same house as you
To live on the same street
The same town
The same state
The same country
To call you my father
That is why I refuse to let anyone see my last name online
I would never keep my maiden name
You disgust me
Your face is the face of my nightmares
I flinch when you come my way while angry
I feel as though you will slap me
You laugh at all my fears
You make me feel as though I am a microscopic speck of dust floating in the atmosphere
How come you feel superior to everyone else?
That no one has had it as tough as you
What a load of crap
You have it easy
So easy
Too easy
You have no idea how hard others have it
You are privileged
You have so much
You don’t deserve half of it
Even though you may try to defeat me
You wont win
I will not give up so easily
I will overcome this suffering and hell that you have put me through for all these years
But I will thank you for one thing
Thank you for showing me exactly what I don’t want to do with my life
So congratulations
You have failed to create the monster that was expected to come from you
Instead, you have made me
Someone who will finally stand up to you
I will not be brainwashed to think that what you are is okay
Because I am too smart to think that anything that you do is okay
It is cruel and I will no longer be your prisoner
So thank you for being the role model I never needed
I would have been much better off if I hadn’t had to take your crap
No human being deserves this
And I definitely don’t deserve you