My old man had me spend a summer in Texas Building diesels and changing tires It was every day out in that hot sun Thinkin about you to pass the time Hard rock radio station playing all day I was seventeen alone in the desert Living out of a hotel room I smoked *** with the owner of the place I would go down late at night to the lobby Just to have one minute away from that **** t.v Jay was the Indian guy I rolled joints with on many nights He would sell liquor to all me and the guys staying at the place But he treated me different like he knew me I mean the other guys They didn't leave a lot behind But I left it all I left you I sat in the back of a pick up Watching tears roll down your face Waving at me It never hurt so much To do anything I had a broken heart No telephone call could heal Even if I spent a good chunk of change on long distance charges Falling asleep on the phone every night Jay left his wife in Bangladesh He said (One time when he was very drunk) That he left his soul with her That he kept her picture rolled up in his pocket Just like I kept yours in my pocket Leaving it on the bed side table Next to empty bottles and ash trays I learned that summer That you weren't meant for me That you were ******* half the town while I was gone At least you didn't tell me Until I got back home It was the nicest thing you ever did Besides sending me that letter bathed in your perfume I kept that under my pillow Until it was as wrinkled and faded as your photo All those beautiful girls I thought were nothing That waitress at the hotel bar Who sat for hours talking with me About you And work And time And family And love She was perfect She was beautiful She really did care And my only regret is that I wasted so much time filling my memory with your lying greenΒ Β eyes, and not her honest blue eyes