It's moments just like this
Where I'm on the train
And I remember like a whizz of color
And wine
All the times
I left you behind.

You thought you did it
You wanted to be the one to let me go
But this time
I left you for dead.

And that's the answer to all the equations
I've created and mulled over
In my mind
A thousand and one times
I waved goodbye to it all
And stopped longing for validation
Answers
To be your dreams.

I knew it would all come crashing down
All of it, all along the way
Perhaps due to being bred with such
A path that was not meant
For one of our own
And I say all of the times
That I fly and chime high in the clouds
Becoming one with those furious
Inexplicably beautiful swans
He got a tattoo
He wrote a song
He wrote a poem
He carved my initials into his arm
I've been painted
Fantasized
Love letters

And it was all meaningful at the time
And always will be
But you can't capture me in a net
Or just recreate my image
In your boy head

Cuz you were all right
I'm too amazing
And ******* special.