there is a boy who smells like crushed up pills who licks his lips when he thinks hard and holds his hands in the pockets of his blue windbreaker. he is the kind of person with the kind of mind that you wish you could read; you want to delicately crack open his skull and reveal the contents written in its folds. you want to know what is written on the crumpled up slips of graph paper that he carries in his jacket pockets. you want to know why he is and why you are and what mess of universal ties somehow connect you.