I really thought I had gotten rid of it for good
I let all this sadness make its way back into my life when I should
Be keeping a positive attitude without anyone knowing whats behind the smile
Its all returning all the sorrow and its seems so similar to when I was once a child
This emotion just seems to become visible once more after so many years
I never thought it would return making feel like I'm at the bottom of the stairs
Oh how I wish I could make it disappear
But I just sit here watching every tear
Slide down my face like a river of blues
I might not be a drinker but I feel like to relieve it all I need some *****
Everyone is leaving but now I have no one to fly around with
And all the memories we shared seem to good to be true like a legend or a myth
If I wasn't so shy she would've known by now
But my heart is locked, only she can open it, no one else knows how
Do you all consider me to be a friend or just another plug
You guys are my loved ones who took all the lemonade out my jug
How do I go off to college knowing I'm leaving the first set of people I could call friends behind
Without any of you in my life I don't have an identity I can't be defined
Why does my life have to turn back to its usual gloom
My shyness will block out anyone new I meet sending me to my own doom
I wish I had more time with everyone especially her
Especially when I'm apart of a family who's love always gets deeper and deeper
With prom coming so close I have no date and everyone "wants to be taken"
Its not like I want to make you my girlfriend or let my emotions awaken
Why is it so hard, why can't I find a date
I don't want to show up sad and lonely, please appear before its too late
I wish I had more time to renew my last session
Because these are all the things that takes me Back To My Depression