i tainted myself i ruined all that was good and beautiful about me, i scarred and bruised myself.
i tainted myself i let them abuse me i let them **** me and **** me over and over again.
i tainted myself
i looked in the mirror and hated what i saw, i tried to please myself but ending up making myself bleed.
chewing off my fingers and crying my eyes red.
I tainted myself, took pills to help me sleep, it hardly worked and when it did, I had nightmares.
animals who attacked me and people who pulled their teeth out.
I didn't take any again.
i tainted myself if i died, i don't think anyone would care.
maybe a few, two or three, then after awhile they'd forget about me.
i've tainted myself, i've done nothing worthwhile. i laid on my *** and cried all the time.
i wanted to be someone special, someone who made a difference but all i did was ruin me.
i feel like a body with no soul, a vessel with a half-beating heart and a mask for a face just hovering through the years, too scared and selfish to commit to death all the while knowing i'll be missed.