It all makes sense to me now.
Every circle I've been through.
Every loophole in my behavior identified.

But how to break this vicious cirkel of self neglect,
self medication and lack of self respect?

I burn incense, candles
and lay out tarot cards.
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No answers, no clarity, not a slight hint from the universe.

Desperation sets in as I tumble deeper down the rabbit hole.
I'm looking for answers
but that is like looking for a glimpse to see what's under Alice her skirt.
Absolutely pointless.

I go round and round and round like I'm groveling in my own ***** and self pity.

And today I woke up.
And today I got the answer.



ALL HAIL CTHULU!