im worse than before.

at this point i dont even talk about it anymore.

i have a feeling that ill get so bad

that ill finally have the guts to end it all.

i talked to two adults who were supposed to be able to help me,

all they did was make excuses for him.


oh well,

not like i expected them to really be able to help.

now i can say i reached out...

now its definitely their fault,

they cant say i was selfish and didnt reach out.