a match ignites
my mind is dry
it catches like a forest fire
eyes gleam with flames
the opposite of passion
melting everything i love
lips cracked
throat tight
my skin is a body bag
my bed is a morgue
strapped down inside
body paralyzed
an electrical shortage in my head
what once made me free
now drags me down
bound to my inner most hatred
i place the chemical under my tongue
an inch of bitter
just to experience color again
i sacrifice being present in a tangible moment
by trying to capture it behind a lens
because i'm scared it won't happen again
or maybe i'm scared it will
and i want to be prepared
but you can't be ready for everything
there's no drill that would've helped me through this pain
i super glue the blinds shut over my mind
and keep away the antifreeze from my heart
there hasn't been a rainbow in awhile
just rain
and you broke my umbrella
i never hold my breath while passing a cemetery
the only difference between them and me
is they have a final resting place