Self love
Education
I fear my brain, my skull decreasing lacking
I'm too tired to soak up more information at times
But I feel this itching need, desire
To read more, do more, see more.

Come home from work to discuss whats next
I feel like I've had a bad attitude lately
Sleep deprivation and this grind gettin' the best of me
I remembered the image of spinning in my red skirt
This time last week to get me through
But right now that all seems so far away.

Submitting tonight, barked up some new trees
Hire me to do what I please
I haven't acted in so long
My agents don't send me out like they oughta
Too tired to record stupid ******* voice overs
I never seem to book.

Its so hard when you havin' to be what they want
I hate wearing a uniform every day to work
And my hours ain't even bad but its the combination
Too tired, too drained
I don't have no real romance to give away.

Lets pass out real soon
Allow dreams to take over
I asked myself tonight,
What do I need to make me happy?

Some canned tomato soup
Burnt grilled cheese
I told myself lets maybe not do work
But I found myself reading articles, book marking
I've worked so ******* hard.

But it will all be worth it
Mama lectures me about my choices
I cannot imagine being with anyone right now.

I hold myself and my teddy bear tonight
Eye mask on, forget the sun
Or the 56 events that go on
Do what you prefer.

Tonight I prefer
To let my mind and body rest
Lets get up tomorrow, greet the sun
Run, exercise, find reasons to get up
95 percent of the time its so hard to find the drive
But what great discipline
If I can't now, when will I?

Self love.
Body and mind rest.
Forget the past.
Rest.