I dyed the front strand of my hair dark gray blue I told a girlfriend waiting for the train How an old business partner of mine asked me once "What are you most afraid of?" And I said: Men.
Theres this sense of entitlement ****** forwardness. Threat. Just because you want us Don't mean we want you.
I've noticed and swam in the ocean But its not really the ocean Its just Lake Michigan I coin the creative things And I miss my old life at times But I settle and spread my wings out here.
But there is somethin' about men And it ain't got to do with location But I do think in big cities Monogamy and sincerity harder to come by Remember how you would use the word ain't too? Because of me And my influence.
I heard you came into my room. We all knew you would. My Chicago sisters of the moon Who it took me running away to Philadelphia To realize I ran out of rope To see, to see Appreciate and nourish your surroundings But I make phone calls and videos Sending my love and listening ears My Philly army ladies are the best.
But they did We called it I left my door propped open with the paint I used To paint myself blue Mystique The night after you left my heart in the toilet I knew you would soak me up See my living quarters My handwriting all over the walls So I propped my door open Just so you could see I wasn't home.
I heard you celebrated stealing your sweat shirt back You sifted through my belongings Made yourself right at home But honey baby, I've so clearly moved on.
As you hide behind fundamental fake antics Lewd gestures You flick off the cameras documenting moments on film sets I should have known, I should have known.
It angered me To hear you were so entitled I was so wrong about you.
I felt contentment For all of about 5 minutes Everyone said you were different, better, real With me But I left you at the wedding.
I'm not sure what any of it is But I hate sleeping these days I woke up again today to a beautiful black man in my bed Closing my eyes all morning So connected, so deep I swat and gallop past the prejudices of my home town.
Beautiful Innovator and I danced down the streets of my neighborhood I threw the CimmFest tshirts I snagged into the sky We howled, we laughed I felt so free, so open I ate eggs, he told me to protect my art. We protect our art But I can't just have this be a hobby all my days.
I don't know And I never really seem to. But I know you see the women get body painted After me, my influence We knew you would come into my room You think you're so cool.
But really. God Bless, and I meant it Its only a matter of time one of the boys said "Don't ever go back. Because then he will think he's got you around his finger. Its not fair to you." My hair dresser said to me today. Don't ever go back Don't ever go back I can't believe she went back I can't believe I went back, to soak up more blood But I bit into my heart Refilled it with the blood I lost