Apr 2016
So I am sitting in the park doing a few sketches, of people, pets, tress buildings even the sky the Saturday morning sky. It's that time of year again, mid February when all is red and heart shaped.
I am alone amongst couples picnics thinking about the evening ahead, how I will try sweep your feet away from you, try my best to make you smile and make you fall deeper in love with me. Remind you again why we started this journey you and me. I see the happiness on their faces, the love in their eyes, the memories in the way they hold hands and the security to each others presence. I see the promise of tomorrow in the look of love that paints these strangers faces. I can feel their love spreading to me, their happiness their shy glances and the small habits belonging only to lovers. The little bits and pieces that put together the portrait of loves look. I could hear birds sing, the wind breezes sweet whispers, and the caress of the morning sun.
Everything stopped dead.
I saw a figure, I saw 2 figures one belonging to you. With hands together, smiles full and the look of love fluttering across your faces. A heartbeat passed. I saw the slow kiss that was exchanged between the 2, the hands moving to waist of him, the hands moving from shoulders to neck, yours caressing his entire existence.
A heartbeat passed.
I saw loves look deep within your eyes penetrating my fire.
A heartbeat passed.
I felt the wet of the beginning if an endless rain upon my face, the earthquake that shook my soul.
A heart beat passed.
You walked past me, me hidden amongst the crowd, hidden by newly cut hair, large sunglasses and a beard neatly trimmed. You didn't see me, never looked I'm my direction. I thought to myself how, no more importantly what now. I could feel the chasms form in my heart swallowing life, I could feel the drops of my souls leaving from my eyes. I could feel the cold wind absorbing my fire leaving me frozen.
I stood up and walked, I walked with the eyes red, hands shaking, sobs stifled by pride and I walked. Out of your heart out of your life, towards the darkness of solitude the hollowness of betrayal. Preparing myself for the calls at midnight asking for forgiveness and the worthless tears you would show to me. I would show you my strength that even when I am shattered I can stand. And say to you "I saw you you didn't see me, in the place surrounded by green and fitted by lovers. I saw the look of love on your face without me. Goodbye" and forever I will remember, on the day of roses and heart shaped gifts, you turned love's look to heartbreak.
I am alone amongst couples picnics thinking about the evening ahead, how I will try sweep your feet away from you, try my best to make you smile and make you fall deeper in love with me. Remind you again why we started this journey you and me. I see the happiness on their faces, the love in their eyes, the memories in the way they hold hands and the security to each others presence. I see the promise of tomorrow in the look of love that paints these strangers faces. I can feel their love spreading to me, their happiness their shy glances and the small habits belonging only to lovers. The little bits and pieces that put together the portrait of loves look. I could hear birds sing, the wind breezes sweet whispers, and the caress of the morning sun.
Everything stopped dead.
I saw a figure, I saw 2 figures one belonging to you. With hands together, smiles full and the look of love fluttering across your faces. A heartbeat passed. I saw the slow kiss that was exchanged between the 2, the hands moving to waist of him, the hands moving from shoulders to neck, yours caressing his entire existence.
A heartbeat passed.
I saw loves look deep within your eyes penetrating my fire.
A heartbeat passed.
I felt the wet of the beginning if an endless rain upon my face, the earthquake that shook my soul.
A heart beat passed.
You walked past me, me hidden amongst the crowd, hidden by newly cut hair, large sunglasses and a beard neatly trimmed. You didn't see me, never looked I'm my direction. I thought to myself how, no more importantly what now. I could feel the chasms form in my heart swallowing life, I could feel the drops of my souls leaving from my eyes. I could feel the cold wind absorbing my fire leaving me frozen.
I stood up and walked, I walked with the eyes red, hands shaking, sobs stifled by pride and I walked. Out of your heart out of your life, towards the darkness of solitude the hollowness of betrayal. Preparing myself for the calls at midnight asking for forgiveness and the worthless tears you would show to me. I would show you my strength that even when I am shattered I can stand. And say to you "I saw you you didn't see me, in the place surrounded by green and fitted by lovers. I saw the look of love on your face without me. Goodbye" and forever I will remember, on the day of roses and heart shaped gifts, you turned love's look to heartbreak.
