i guess whatever comes, i have to not only deal with but accept, enjoy, and become conscious about i don't need anybody and the ones who say that are the ones who have people they need even if they've read "freedom" by osho i love this being named sabrina i never asked for anything more than **** but i got the heaven my mother speaks about after death there's no heaven, but her existence sure is like no other i don't mean to cause love it just happens through our consciousness and the way our minds work they dont correlate, but just being makes it happen and its lovely more than lovely more than red, cupid, and all that **** no romantic love it goes beyond that