Sometimes I get so depressed
that I don't have the energy to pick up and write
Writing is everything to me
It is what has saved me so many times in the past
It is the one thing I turn to when I feel like I am drowning
in my unpredictable sadness
It scares me when the one thing that seems to always save me
is the one thing that I want nothing to do with
when I am at my absolute lowest
That is how I know I am more than just sad
I am in danger of losing my life
That's not easy to confess on paper
or to someone in person