i'm sorry but i don't
know how much more
longer i can take the tears
i told you i would wait forever
and i meant it but the tears first began
everyday but then started being once a week
and then rarely but now they are back to being
every night and i just don't know anymore it goes
up and down back and forth like a huge freaking cycle
and i am tired of the cycle so for you i'm
going to try no not try i am going to
break the cycle and not cry and i
am going to get through this so
everything can be good so that i don't ruin
this perfect and fragile thing we have cause
to me it's the best thing happening in my life
and one of few things i am looking forward
in life to that and becoming a general surgical
and being with you so i am sorry i have been so
sad recently but i am going to fix it cause you can't
keep saying sorry if you aren't going to fix the problem
cause then you don't really mean it...  do you?
so i am going to stop crying and then i am going to stop
worrying about everything so i can get my license and get a
car and get a job and start doing stuff with my precious life
because i have decided moping about moving and not getting
to see my best friends everyday is not good for anyone and
isn't going to help with anything at all so here we go
"my new beginning" it starts now and i am going
go to get the most out of life because life is precious