I really don't like feeling like I'm about to throw up when people are mad at me. And I really don't like feeling like I'm going to die when I think for a split second that someone will leave me. I am so codependent, that every dream I have, I am with someone or in a crowd. And my worst fear is waking up to an otherwise empty world. I live for others. Helping, loving, appreciating them. And that is not okay for me. Because nobody can love as much as I do. I was 7 years old when my mother told me that loving everyone is a blessing and a curse, and said that it's best I didn't tell that girl I loved her when she scraped her knee. I have been feeling the affects of this blessing/curse my whole life. And still, all I want is for someone to at least let me love them like they should be loved like I should be loved.