Lord you know we lost one of our own today a young mother with four babies under seven reminiscent of robin out home had five Jesus this is what everyone living faces I need to speak I don’t neglect them I never look at them with shallow looks my interest are Their eternal souls this is occurrence calls for self examination taking spiritual inventory but lord my soul is dry only dust lies where rich Waters should be standing then though I clean out the debris it comes blown in daily by the world that is fallen its power its influence Fanned by our enemy the devil welcomed by our fallen nature I stood in the shower and wept bitter tears standing against a natural Wall but it makes me know I am at the wall of my soul I was going to consult metaphysical books to address soulful areas I have Lincoln and Jefferson books here they lived lives of great difficulty from this uttered words of reason that still burn and scorch time And places where mundane edifices needed clearing and replaced with structures that held magnificence as there enduring building Material please let me see and hear the spiritual waters flowing into my soul that it fills then over flows out to the needy the hopeless And the helpless they have to go the distance all else is fearful and treacherous ground live a lifetime and then to late discover it only Led to ruin take off the blinders put on spiritual glasses read the word realize the showers of blessings that are promised we have to go Back to childhood no adult would think about standing in the rain but what trills and fun we used to know the banging thunder we used To say angels dropped a vegetable in heaven off of a wagon then wet freezing run up on the porch warm up physically but also on the Inside talking to one another how wonderful we go to church feel your spirit know and feel such sweetness outwardly all the way Down in our souls no experience on earth compares whats the problem all of our loved ones from school and life are at home Watching some drivel being spoon fed some harmful leads they create desires that will finally place you in insurmountable Circumstances the no way out death trap while our blessing is sweet all consuming instructive peaceful like dreams of high lovely Nature yes we get attacked in quick order but those blessings were fortifying it put armor about your life and concerns are quickly Dissolved in holy prayer and meditations someone setting on the couch or worse a bar stool misses these protective modes that Create survival and success only problem he still has to go the distance provide and guide his family but with inferior ineffective Means of support he is soon over whelmed and leads to more drinking and instability and eventually dire straits and then complete Collapse we need reinforcement in a true sense spread the word of God before you walk then your steps will be sure and it will be a Lamp unto your feet we are in a darkened troubled world caution steadied hands held by divine messengers will win the day and then The next day at the end it adds up to a life your proud of an the exit unto eternity won’t be terrifying it will be like for Tamara Electrifying walk from love coming at intervals to the flood your swimming in it and the peace I had this experience my sister died back Here we spent Christmas at Disneyland was going to stay longer then decided to go on home but just stop in Paso to break up the trip I believe she died when I was out in the San Sequin valley a storm came up while driving on interstate five all kinds of debris flew up in Front of the car I had a very eerie feeling I felt something sinister as I went back over the time and it difference to Illinois time it was When she died we checked in to the the Adelaide inn the room filled with a peace other worldly it was so strong I was actually trying to See the heavenly visitor who had to be responsible it was so great we stayed extra days we couldn’t leave the song comes to mind He looked beyond my fault and saw my need I didn’t know but God knew he took care of me without me understanding why that’s’ What I want for all of you that are out of the arc of safety hell was made for the devil but man made it part of his reality by the fall Jesus is calling no one ever spoke your name like he does please cry to him its eternal rewards hanging in the balance.