Conflicted, Confused and Contemplating all I knew
Is how you left me
Because you healed me
You loved me
Is what I thought
But now I am filled with wrought
I dread the day I see you again
Because I don't know where to begin
You lead me down a sweet, silent path
Where you mended my wounds and fixed every scar
You distracted me from the world unknown
And you took me away to somewhere over the rainbow
I think I always will love you
And I hate that you have that grip on me
My first love
Blocked me from your life
And everlasting strife
You've deleted me from your words, your page
Does anger even have an age?
For I never know
When I will feel good again, when I will forget
The day you took my heart
Held it in your palm
And ripped in every scar...
I forgive you.
I loved  you.
I hate you.
But you will always be dear to me
In this conflicted place in my heart
Filled with confusion
Contemplating what I once knew....