Thousands of pounds of dark, shiny, heavy metal light soars over the moon-glittered mirror. No shadows block water from the sky. I float, eyes looking inward as I hope that today will be forgettable. For hours, I have no idea where I've been or where I'm going, hearing only engine and praying its whirring doesn't slow. I'm a chicken ****. I keep trying to fade away from my own mind. Terrified. Hell-bent on tomorrow, I stumble off to sleep.