i mean i started writing poetry young
too,
but most it is lost to time,
i haven't kept any of it - the overpowering
surge to become that old cello
player prodigy who just said:
'i'm still only practising,
it sounds good, but i still have to feel
armchair leather with the bow and strings,
or like routing out circles using
the index and thumb to feel a gentle
tickling sensation of skin upon skin
with each finger eating up the other's
fingerprint valleys for champagne sparkles.'
and what i've noticed is that
a poet in youth is primarily trying to
overcome pronoun use - juvenilia output
is primarily about that - obviously the use
of pronouns in any form of writing is
unavoidable - but to overcome a certain
awareness of them is what proves to be
the rolling snowball to spur anyone on -
ever deeper, ever more like a lighthouse on
a rocky shore, rather than as a ship with
many sailors apprehensively readying themselves
to either sail on, or shatter against the waves
should someone not mind becoming the lighthouse;
the sailing on is equated with an abandonment
of writing poetry - the new crew with the same
dilemma of overly using pronouns at first,
later abandoning them to stand firm as a honing
rotation of light.