Long red sleeved shirt Sometimes it feels impossible Truly impossible To maintain, regulate, and sustain Joy.
Happiness. A little event here, a word spoken by this person Perhaps not with ill intention But I just wanted to come home tonight And bring pie.
Ain't nothin' bad Its all fine But sometimes my chest The butterflies that were so eloquently flying Spinning and releasing colors of beauty Longevity, strength, courage Its as if a single slicing sound Resounded so loudly That every person that claimed they were this or that Never picked up a pen or a camera A script And did what they so prolifically claimed They do.
Maybe I'm secretly too ******* others sometimes Just as I was reminiscing about where I was at this time Last year I can't control or maintain Anyone else's ******* happiness And I don't know why humans Take or project their own insecurities on others But I am conscious of my words, my tone My language.
However. I was sitting on the bed with the new man last night As he told me a story or two And in my high state, there was this small part of me That wanted to treat him like he was less than Probably because he is a man And I have been so deeply, deeply hurt By so many of them.
I don't know what the eff it means And I'm not gonna bank on anything But I free myself from thoughts of my past lover Who threw, no hurled My heart into the gutter So for Christ's sake Don't remind me of him More than I already ******* do.
I was waiting for the bus tonight After drinking 3 glasses of wine I just wanted to bring home pie.