Wear, we all grow so weary Blood stained fangs, our Medusa heads surround and cloud me Hissing and whispering "He's not for you. He's not for you." Hung up on mama just now, Wouldn't stop repeating repeat Lecturing me Get a flu shot, forget him, forget him But the ink of both drugs Seeped and swept into my blood so deep
Ruined me, my brain But I can't believe a silly man has that much power I fight drug addiction to wrongness While my best friend weeps and cries into her lovers arms There in 5 days time, thank God As my childhood best friend prepares for a funeral march If only, if only I wish I could lift up all the souls And we could dine and wine On nothing but love and height. Its gonna be hard to be positive and thankful today Dressed to go run in the sun A to do list that is every growing I wanna drink and fade away into the night But I start a new job tomorrow morning.
But lets take molly Saturday night My room mate said to me with a twinkle in her eye I'm down, I'm so down Friday, Fridays are always the hardest When I have let you go I wonder and I count on ten fingers and toes Though you lack such extreme capacity You must, must feel the same Deep within your little tiny skull.
I don't ******' know. A man I have never met was so agitated with me last night Because I was too tired to vape and meet up But send him a sweet text this morning Use my poetry he said via technology But I just don't give a flying ****.
I think most of the time I talk to myself in circles Hoping someone who cares will listen For the first time the feedback and negative words They share with me about you They hit home.
And I can thank every Catholic star of God of Gods For that Although my beliefs continue to progress More loosely.
Sound Operator on set had lingering moments Of drinking me in through a straw But I gotta be professional "Your lips match your eyes" He said to me as we carried and hustled gear I wish I knew, I wish I had the education But I pick up and try to learn as best as I can.
Trailer is a bit too long Lets make it tight, right I count down the days on a white board I think my other room mate hates me But **** it, **** it all I say to myself in a sober or drunken state My heart and brain cares far too much.
So you don't reply, I don't think you will "He's not strong enough to" My girlfriends all chime As our snake heads hiss and sing Ring, ding, move on along Bye, so long Poison you ******* poison My life and the rotations and evolution The sweet words I concoct and drink through my own straw I finally, finally Take a breath, take a moment Heal the wounds Let the ink of the drugs of you Slip and fade away, removed at last