I woke up this morning
It was difficult to greet the sun
My phone kept chirping and burping
The world is calling you.

I whispered to myself as I made my bed this morning
"Day 3."
There was a time you helped me,
Helped me make my bed
But the toxicity and oil of your love
Became too overflowing
That I walked into a cave
Of half way.

But it was the nicest one you proclaimed
I made a sign just now
Taped it to the back of the door
"Begin Again"
Hold True.
Trust the journey.
Day 3 of releasing you.
Of releasing me.

And I don't care if you respond
To my brilliance, my freedom
I don't care if you are angry
Or if you pine through alcohol and dance
Because you only brought me down.

The 9 pairs of eyes turn in unison
Asking me to not forget them
I never could.

I don't want to throw it all to the wolves
It was not all for not
But the look on your face on the Chicago train
Told me everything I needed to know
Even though my voice betrayed me
"This isn't over yet."
But what if I just fully allow it to be?

So the sun shines outside
Its gonna be cold
Its gonna be hard
Its gonna have moments of loneliness
But thank God, thank God
I got my power back.

I was so strong in momentary moments
Lets maintain that fierceness
7 days until I fly away
To continue to pursue what I'm meant to do
Writing that line just now made my eyes swell up
I got so caught up in it all.

But what a beautiful thing
Of course I did
As you chased me, lassoed me in with unrealistic promises
The *** my darling
Was good
But I love me too ******* much.

So lets stay and keep it true
Lets hold onto our own devices this time
The world is full of color and invitation around me
I hate to let you go
I hate that you can't keep up
I'm sure your eyes will peek around corners
To see where I fly next
But my darling, my little baby darling
I wanted so badly to teach
Repeat, kindness
It was never
Ever enough
For lil ole Southern fighting
Masochistic, glamorous, brave
******* me.