If I compiled a pile or list of All the painted skeletons Of yesterday, 7 years ago It would look just like a Heap of Me.
So many ***** in the air A man at a festival meeting comments My gold nail polish looks ******* stupid I think sometimes I am just the worst Just the worst.
Standing in front of vats of permeating grilled carnage I serve and I serve, but its never enough Its never enough Glutten on a broomstick I gaze out at the windows teasing me But the gloom like the X-acto knife I wrote And carved just how I felt My room mate and I both wear sadness today we say.
The women around me also all seem to be in a fuss I pondered the shadowed moon last night Looking for answers, solutions The signal on my cell phone to my mother Holds strong underground I stick up for you, I still stick up for you.
A frenzy of beautiful moments I replayed and watched them all in my head My hands and body intertwined with grease Just how you look down at me As your body and my body Long and search for the answers.
Hearing nothing but poetic phrases Wishing my mind could record just like Ink on parchment My God, I do wish I had it all figured out As unrealistic as that all may be.
Snap chatting singular moments I grapple with money signs flashing across my face Mama and Papa are just so glad, so glad they say I don't do that dancin' game To get by.
So insanely busy, we pontificate our schedules As if butterflies and the fact I almost just deleted this Entire poem by accident Mattered at all.
"MY woman" A male friend of mine corrected me But I only jested I only spoke in jest I'm the jester, I'm the self destructive clown The beautifully tragic clown With the crooked sly grin Turning and covered in chicken grease.
I'm not ******* special I'm not special that I hustle and work those day jobs I'm not ******* special I tell myself to get through mornings Tag teaming and gang ****** Just how I lessen myself every time I look for Validation.
Remember how you use to respond to me in poetry? I cannot tell you how much I miss those days It was the only thing that ever made any Any ******* sense to me I still pine and yearn for those times When I felt like the ball had been bounced back to me In such an unexpected way But you, you went away so far You buried your heart in the dirt But they aren't because of issues you say.
I'm not angry, I'm not hurt You have been so good, so sweet this past week It just took, it took me once again I turned to you on the street My hair whispering in the wind You grabbed me and held me Like a sea otter would My tentacles and tendrils mystifying you But you stopped splashing the water back Though sometimes in those singular moments I catch you contemplating the pitter patter and swirls Of the ocean around us we wish we had answers to.
Betrayer is moving away from NYC "Seems so" He said to me He use to tie up my wrists so well Comparing me to ****** and trinkets in the street I don't know that we will ever see each other again.
My poems have been getting longer and longer You comment, but I know that sentence is so much more loaded I gotta go be a person, I gotta go do I gotta stop getting in my own way And I am so, so very relieved That we are good Lets please stay good.
Your eyes looking down at me As your skin and moments we treasure When we make love, Everything else around us washes away Engulfed in our elaborate unity If only we could hold and treasure it Here, here Here here Here, here Hear Her.