You I thought I'd killed you Haven't you done enough Haven't you caused me to suffer enough? I sliced my wrist for you drew lines of blood across my chest There will be faint scars that I will always see as red Because of you. I collapsed the world for you. Almost died for you. For fifteen years I smothered myself So that you could live. And then I killed you. Sick as I was for having inhibitions on my happiness just for you to survive I said goodbye in the rain Staring into the trees made out through the mist You were gone I made sure you were gone. But here you are back again to cause me pain. Guised in the cloak of being a friend You smile so kindly but I know better. I am not the girl you thought I was, The girl you made me be. I hate you! I ******* hate you. But I also love you. I love you You are a part of me. Us in our duality I wouldn't be here if not for you. You wouldn't be here if not for me. For having to support me In the world gone mad I still hate you hate that the pain I suffered under your hands is what brought me here. Here at the crossroads where I must choose.
I hate you But I love you ******* I love you. You are a part of me A crucial necessity of my identity. I cannot survive without you without the memories of you. The memories of us. All the times we flew All the times we fell. I know which path I must choose The one to travel on without you. But before we go Our separate ways know that I love you that I won't forget you Even in time as the voice we shared Deepens into my own Even when I remove the tissue you grew on my chest I won’t forget you. You are a part of me I love you You are me But I am no longer a part of you.