"Do you know how much I love you?" You whispered with such soft intensity In my ear, as we waited for the blue line The night of several nights We wanted, we tried To hang on, Redefine But we could still do our own thing We said.
I know deep in the fires of the now That if I was still hanging on My heart would be dwindling Even more than it does today.
Moments of such relief, strength I look around me and I see That you are not meant to be right by my side.
But today, in the gloomy snow fall One of my room mates barely talks to me at all But I don't really give a ******* ****.
I should go exercise Release some positivity My right eye still slightly twitching I wish I didn't long for you so much today.
I wonder if you feel the same I know, from recovering old poems This too shall pass.
Cracks in my heels Sometimes I feel as if I have no purpose Didn't wanna do dinner with the actor last night Embracing solitude, no obligation But ******* I miss you today.
But I release into it, into the wind Knowing there is a sense of validation, worthiness I will never fully gain from you So I stop searching, looking Acknowledge the gloomy snow fall And move forward.