i wanted to write exactly how i was feeling
but my thoughts stayed blank
so my paper was empty

and as my blind rage went on, you came into my thoughts
which is nothing completely crazy because you always ******* do.
but unlike other times, i was confused
how in the hell did you have anything to do with the fact that i couldnt think of anything?
there was no way you were the reason for every  feeling i had.

but as i began to calm down and my senses decided to kick in
and it all made sense.
its always you
you are the feeling itself
the sadness, the heartbreak, the defeat
the anger and even the sliver of happiness i feel from time to time when i think you want me back.
youre the crash and roll waves bring to the calm shore
youre the shaking cat in the backyard who doesnt want anyone but needs them
but then youre every single ******* sunset ive ever seen,
all blurred into one.