I don't remember what I was doing last year on this day,
but I know I felt a lot better than I do now
I had him
It was a rouse
I was the pawn
It's funny how I thought I'd never be a rebound and now that I look back I've been one multiple times
I always thought they saw the lights in my eyes when they really saw me as a bright distraction
I'm beautiful I'm kind I care about you they all said it and I believed it because I thought they were the world
It hurts
They're good people I tell myself, but that's so hard to believe when I remember how it ended
I see them smiling and I think of when I loved them how I still sometimes feel the same
It doesn't hurt because I remember how it ended it's remembering the journey to the end and how I wish someone felt the same how I wish I felt the same
It might had been all fake but it felt good anyway
And that's life
Jumping between blissful moments, believing there is always one ahead