If only I could find the right words
for this pain,dull and throbbing
If only
I could find the words to say
What I mean to tell you;
I leave the unbroken silence to
hang in the air
like fog,
thick,
Suffocating.

Maybe if I could
pinpoint
the origin of all
this *******
the shaky hands and
bouts of angst
But the message field
is as blank as my face,
still.

the stars come crashing down
for them,why not for me?

Why can't tell you I miss you in a one paragraph email,not four?
Why can't I tell my mother
I feel like ****?

Why can't I find
the words
                "I'm sorry"

Within my soul?