you've said enough, I could say no more
words like sickle cell slowly tear me from within,
you did not care to spare, you simply ignore
the months of loneliness, playing my violin
on a cord you did not fair,
you give that deadly, hardened stare
you trampled on me, all my failures,
all my dreams, all the hopes I could not keep
when embraced you crumbled your face
wrinkled, full of contempt, unhappiness settles in
this coupling was sure misplaced
I stayed in hope I could guide you with care
To warmth that would make a beast a child's bear
no, you could not be held, nor molded, you only withheld
a history of mistreatment, neglection leading to abandonment
this left you a scar that will never heal
and you inflict more onto yourself
because this one you could not conceal
you swore by punishment, you wanted to be punished
by you, your force, your evil-contempt, a malicious hunger to reap justice on yourself,
punishment,
you wanted alone, a life you could not bare to live,
I gave you need but you wanted self affliction,
even if it was ******* you thought this, "this is what I deserve"
confinement.
I wanted to think what you thought so I could help you think
differently because thoughts are easy battles
just don't drop the bomb.
Talk it out, compromise, the war should not be exercised.
It is a doomsday device.
I know you're still in there, innocence, innocent Bell.
Let me in, let us run out.