If only I could

And before this poison takes a hold
And I lose the better part of me
I lose it all
I've known for so long
Exactly what it is
I really want

Before this poison takes a hold
And I become a stranger
Shouting at shadows
And afraid of ghost

I know exactly what I want
But not how to make it happen
Or how to live without
And the more I search for answers
The more I start to question
What I will be

And so I'm grasping for ropes
Gasping on the last of the air
I hold my breath
Until I suffocate

But its a brighter world
Full of love and wonder
Full of change
Its a dream that I had as a child
Its a dream that would be
If only I could

And before the poison takes a hold
As its racing through my veins
Steady for my heart
I just wanted to say