I'm such a ******* phony
Such a ******* mistake
To say one thing and do
Something totally different
I'm in the way
Full of ******* ego
I cringe everyday
To ponder why I don't know
Life takes it's toll
I don't know how to live it
I fake it more than most times
Wondering why all of the *******
I try to do what's right
But even that is half the truth
I cry myself to sleep at night
Thinking of the bridges I have burned
So many people I have hurt
Because of my self-will
Wanting ******* attention
And doing anything to get it
I would say things that pleased you
I would do things that weren't true
All because of seeking approval
I was never my own person
Not a ******* thought of my own
I had to play the role
And destroy everything I had sown
It wore me out
To be someone I'm not
Don't understand what it's all about
I had to have one more shot
One more negative thought
Crying suicide
But in reality I wanted to live
I just wanted you to feel sorry for me
And give me your friendship
I wanted to be popular
But really I was down in the heap
Nothing turned out the way I wanted it to be
So please feel sorry for me
And give me all your lovin'