Thats a first. I had a title before I wrote a single letter.
***** martini girl scribbling in her little black notebook Sometimes when I write poetry it feels less purposeful You are in a really good mood, you type and text to me Your hand a gentle greeting in between my shoulder blades Right where wings spread when no one else is around.
I spotted the swan tattoo on your ankle this morning As the snow colored sun peeked in through my windows
You stayed behind while I frolicked over in the cold Leaving things behind? Staying involved? But letting something be its own entity.
The bartender asked me if I was your girlfriend I laughed my response so awkwardly casual Rubbing lemon juice on my pink face You kissed me so passionately in the cab Last night, my lipstick staining both of us We have stained each other In a way I'll always remember.
Blame it on the cold The alcohol The slippery snow, hibernating Everyone wants that someone to snuggle Kiss and watch movies with We fell back asleep this morning You held me as if I were a little doll "Skin like porcelain"
We both know the truth Sipping green tea, smoothies I gear up and rally myself for this or that Hoping I could have just filed you away Like a bank statement Or late fee To crown 2016 with more lightness But we dance in bed sheets Surrounding ourselves with poison But a poison we both hold so dear.
I tried to put on my make up You always watch me so carefully Like a hunter admiring a rare bird If I sent you a poem you would read it "More than once."
I brush off my sensitivity, paranoia Painting strokes into the Chicago pavement As we jest our once a week rendezvous But if I ever needed you, You would run to me.
"Nice try boss!" Your hand writing so juvenile Minty desert shot, disrespect you called it Cigarettes taking you away Always taking you away I watch you go.
I got home and sobbed into the ground I don't know what came over me My worst fear has always been Abandonment. You traveled to me, waving outside of my window Bare feet running in the snow like crossing out-- All the times I use to write my whole name With a man's last attached to it.
Stroking my legs, holding my hands As we devoured our eggs Love in the public eye I switch around times, schedules, framing my life Through a Black Magic camera lens.
This poem could go on and on Playing and twirling like I'm on the biggest playground Your weapons of love present, but lets make it so distant Aimed right at my temple Remember when we rode on the ferris wheel The sunlight hitting your face I snapped pictures of you, we were so young We are so young. I felt so at peace, new, refreshing Only to end up dancing in an empty room With you.
But we grab hands from time to time Catching your looks in the reflection Of a love making mirror I light things on fire Matches and gasoline oozing from my pores, my lips.
The glimmer in your eye when you see hints of jealousy cross my face But I know I'll always be the only woman in the room "You need to settle down." Molly come down. Molly come down. The polaroid on my window sill almost mocking We cannot help but lean, lean Into one another But, but.