Keep having this unwanted feeling,
This feeling I outcast that has a healing,
But it’s so much meaning so I allow it to keep raining.
Raining over me like a dark cloud, fighting the voices in my head that’s so loud.
Numb, empty, alone but I contemplate about changing this emotion,
It has so much power over me like a bullet in motion.
Maybe I like the pain because it makes me who I am,
Or maybe I rather run from the truth then to lend myself a helping hand.
Life is a feeling process, you win some and you lose some,
But I want to **** the feelings but it won’t go no matter how much ***.
It’s affecting me like a virus, pounding my heart,
Pretending like everything’s okay when I know this is so hard,
Being put back in the same position repeatedly every time I think I’ve come so far.
I knew this would’ve happen but I just wanted some affection, a little dose of attention, a feel of affirmation.
I wanted a human meditation.
To help mend the struggles, to love me for my flaws, to show me what I don’t see in myself.
I bring too much to the table to always be unappreciated or played with,
Making up scenarios in my head thinking we could’ve been lit.
Life goes on though it was you I wanted wrapped up in my arms,
This is just another alarm, can’t stop singing these stupid love songs,
I tried but I can’t make you write your wrongs.



-dpk