Today I was in church
And we talked about suffering
The pain we all have
No one is exempt

Pastor had said
God sends us grace
Through people
And prayer
And trust
The Holy Spirit
And the bible

Accept the grace
You're not the same
You're better

Ignore the grace
You're not the same
You're bitter

Pastor told us to share our story
To share our suffering
So here I am
Broken and afraid
And here it is

My first boyfriend
Was mean
Verbally abusive
And extremely controlling

I lost my friends
And almost my family

I shut down slowly
Depression taking hold of me

With him
I dug a grave
With him
I wasn't me
But I let the relationship be

Daddy stepped in
And set me free
Of the poison
He used to control me

I finally saw him
For who he really was

I was angry at first
That God sent him to me
I was angry at first
That God didn't help me

But now I see
Why it was meant for me
I feel the pain
Of another's tough break up
I have a compassion
Different then before

So I give thanks to my God
Even if it ******
Because now I see
How it was meant for me