This pain I'm just embracing,
My heart is racing
What do I do now?
I'm so dumb
To ever think you truly loved me
Im a fool and you played me
I thought you loved me
Thats what I pushed myself to believe
I trusted you
But I was wrong to
Because you don't love me
You never did
You loved the idea
The idea of being loved
The idea of lust
The idea of me
And here I am sitting on a cold bench
Early November
Married to a man who has one foot halfway through the door and the other completely out hoping for me to catch the memo
To just give up and move along.
But that's not me
This is my life...
This is how far you led me
And this is where you left me....