every once in a while
i send you a note
two words
simple and true
'forgive me'

the ritual started
as a way
to say
goodbye
when i died
and before i was
reborn

so every once in a while
i re-trace old scars
and beg you
to forgive me

and when you answer,
if you answer
you say you already have
forgiven
me

but your voice
doesn't feel like forgiveness
and your heart feels hard

and i keep hoping
that one day i will ask again
and you will say
'forgive me'