digging through my brain
for some great memory
from the past
something i can hold onto
something that says
you were happy
once
you smiled easily
laughed with pure joy
slept uninterrupted

i want to hold hands
with that thought
swinging back and forth
joyfully
unadulterated
unblemished
free

i want to get lost
in that thought
forgetting what is
not imagining
what will most definitely
be...

...becoming enraptured
in the goodness
of what could've
been.