And because
I've come from a place
built on constant heartbreak,
what if causing damage
is all I know how to do?

I am so scared of hurting you,
and although I have grown
numb to the pain
that comes along with
being hurt in return,
I have spent so many nights
reciting to myself why it'd be better
to feel nothing at all.

I am finding it hard
to convince myself that not
everyone will try to break me
the way he did.
I am finding it hard
to convince myself that
I deserve any better than my past.