I had never been in love before
so he was my first
they say you never forget your first
I know only this to be true for me.
I am dying  its OK we all are dying
it's just I know it will be sooner for me.
we met at the group councelling
for people cursed with the big C
he looked so fit and well
I was just entering remission
for the third time.
I knew the reaper was just
waiting around the corner.
he kept looking at me
smiling with a mischievous face.
they asked what are you most afraid of
most people said dying
it's scary right.
but he said
of leaving no proof he existed.
he picked me up outside
his smile infectious and beatiful
I almost thought about the future
for the first time in forever.
I can still see my mother
saying let go honey its OK
when the last attack came.
but he was like a whirlwind
he picked me up and we flew
from Kansas to OZ
I tried to hold back from him
I did not want to hurt him
by dying just as we fell in love.
but he was relentless in his pursuit
we made love and I was hooked
he was smitten I know.
he made me forget about big C
he made me feel beautiful
the pain went away
I was just a woman in love
like any young woman.
we took a trip to the islands
it was the best time of my young life.
then as we watched the sun fall into
a magenta sunset miracle.
he told me that he  had an
MRI and lit the room up with cancer.
he died three months later.
And my world was a darker place.
I was told my disease was clear
not a sign of cancer anywhere.
you are in complete remission
young lady the doctor said.
but the pain had only moved
to my heart.
But for sure he got his wish.
he left a mark on this world
that will last until the day I die.