It's not that I can't keep you,
But I am not certain if I'll ever be
Kept By all of you.
I reach out and turn to a different boulevard
Because all I want is to be in the same home as you.
I know we're family but I feel as an in law who is
Resented by all and too oblivious to surrender.
Maybe I'm too happy to be surrounded
And that's why I laugh the loudest.
Perhaps my ways are different so you all
Take turns keeping an eye out on me.
The clock turns to night and
People get in their pairs and walk out the door.
My eyes fill with tears as I am last to leave.
I love hearing "see you again" but I pray
To God and heaven I'll never hear
"Party's over".
If I hear that, it will be of my foolishness.
I have not, so I graciously leave the room
And walk alone to Backward Circle.
Perhaps I'm never going to walk on Forward Ave with all of you.
But I know you walk the avenue,
Together,
Without me.
If I join,
We will only end up
On the streets of
Falling out.
So you can go
Without me.